whatthefuck.com

Yeah, I'm not sure about the title either, but it feels good so I'm going with it.

Life is funny, I mean really fucking funny, I think if Eddie and Pema had bred their offspring would definitely spray obscenities like a sailor so I'm also going with it.

I can't help myself today clearly. So go with it - again.

As I get more into the habit of focusing inward I am faced with greater calm; which feels good. It also raises interesting questions. Like what the fuck am I doing here?

Well, the correct answer to that question is not to answer it lest I get trapped into the hamster wheel of death otherwise known as analytical feedback loop.

But this is a different question - same words - but entirely different question.

I have become acutely aware that I spend a tremendous amount of time focusing my attention outside of myself. Why? I am uncertain and that's irrelevant for now.

When I know what I need to do life can be a little dull?

Nah, try again.

When I am focused and know what I need to do I'm not really clear on how to relate to the rest of what's going on around me. It's switching gears and understanding how the two realities work together or maybe how they can work together with greater fluidity.

I haven't posted in awhile; the last 3+ months have been busy. New job, travel and lots of other comings and goings.